Anniversary - sort of

Hi there!

Soooo.. I just realised that I have had this blog for over a year. I have blabbering about my everyday life, how I felt about it, and even stuff with no relevance for anything - for over a year. I can't really claim that it has been a regular thing, sometimes I've posted stuff as if my life depended on it, and at other times it has been one post every two or three weeks, just because I didn't feel like writing anything, or if I have felt like I didn't have anything constructive to write about.

I can honestly say that the weirdest part of having this blog, has been the fact that some of my friends are reading along. I have shared the link to the blog with a few people, myself, and sometimes I have been wondering if it was even a very good idea, but I haven't regretted it. There was a time where I felt awful but honestly didn't know if I wanted to tell, but from the small "hints", so to say, I kind of gave away in some of my posts, my friends picked up on it, and helped me to kick my ass into action to get better - which I did.

This has been my own little place where I could say whatever I felt like. I could tell the world how fed up I am with something, and no one could dictate what I was going to say or how. It is really underrated to have a place where you can just blast out what is in your mind, even if you just want to make a post about nothing but how weird you think doves are, or this party you went to, this cock-face from work or school - or if you feel like writing about something that has held you down.

And for me, the best part of that is; it doesn't matter if people think it's bad, it is exactly what you want to post on your own god damn blog!

I know I wrote before that the weirdest thing was having my friends reading everything I write.. But thinking more about it, the craziest part of all of this is you guys.. I do apparently have readers from all over the freaking world!! All from the US, Peru, Chile, Greece, Estonia, Russia, Saudi Arabia, China, New Zealand, The Fillipines, Hawaii - it's crazy man!! 

I did never ever expect my blog to be this worldwide.. Sure, I write in English, but I didn't even dare to dream that so many different people would see my blog. It baffles me every time. And what is my biggest question is; how the hell did you guys find me?! I really want to know, but my question remains unanswered.

Now, a thing that I want to make a small comment on; the whole "Jenny chainletter" thing. When you search for the key words you are "told" to searh, in the stupid "letter", my blog with the post I made about it, comes up in the first page in google, and I have no idea how that happened.. How it actually got to the first page is a mystery to me, but I have apparently helped out some people with the "slaughter" of the chainletter, which makes me happy, so all is good!

I felt like I should've done something very special to celebrate the fact that I've had this blog for over a year now.. But I don't know what I should do? Something crazy? Should I bake a cake? I have no idea, but I feel like celebrating! 

For now I will just go to bed though.. It is late, and I need to get up in the early morning, but I just felt like I had to write something, since it's both a long time since last, and that I feel a bit ashamed that I hadn't noticed the "milestone" before now.. But I am off to bed, and I might come up with some idea as to how I should celebrate this?

Goodnight all y'all (couldn't help it..heh)!

Cliffs of Moher

This is a picture I just found on my computer, from the Ireland trip, where we one of the days took a trip to the Cliffs of Moher, and it was an amazing place - I am so glad we went there! The nature was amazing, and even though I went around with a more of less constant fear of falling down directly to my death, it was one of the most beautiful places I've seen! And when the sun came out a little after, it all just added to the beauty, and there was even a rainbow out over the water.

We were standing at the cliffs, and therefor at a point where the next land you'd meet, going further West, would be the US. Of course there's the Aran Islands, but the point were at, the US would be the next land. I have always thought that is is an amazing feeling to look out at the ocean, and just see nothing but water, as long as the eye can see. I'd love to go there again sometime.

Socializing and alcohol

Hi guys!

I'm honestly unsure of what this post is 100% going to be about, and what the title is going to be, but I'll figure out along the way as I get into the writing. I have different suggestions for the title, but I don't really know what will be fitting yet.. I'll get to the writing, and then we'll see what fits.

There is a tendency among some teenagers, that the only way of being socially together in larger groups, are at parties or other occasions where you get drunk. Being drunk is a apparently a condition for meeting new people and bond with ones you don't really know already. I have been told by a guy who holds this opinion; "it is just easier to get to know people when your guards are down, and you are open to new people, experiences and ideas".

I get why some people feel like they need alcohol to be able to open up to new people (I'll come back to that later), but you can call me old-fashioned - I don't understand why you would think that you can't socialize without alcohol in your system. Yes, alcohol can make you relax a bit, and help you break down some of your own walls, but you should really be able to do this completely sober as well.

In the weekend my class had planned a delayed "Christmas dinner-party-thing", and the school had held a party the day before, so everyone was quite smashed. A few of us turned up earlier than the rest to cook, and the mood was quite cozy, all we were drinking was sodas. At the "dinner" (sounds to fancy for what it really was, it was just tacos), a few people drank a beer or two, but most, again, drank soda or water. The night slightly evolved into a game night (as in board games, listening to music and eating crisps and candy), instead of a party - and I honestly think that it was one of the nicest times I've ever had with my class.

I think that a lot of young people today start partying way too early - which might be a topic all to itself - and they then "grow up" with the norm that you have to get drunk to have fun, or to meet new people. Of course this doesn't apply to all teenagers, and I might step over some toes here, but this is my opinion! You can easily have fun without alcohol, and I was so pleasantly surprised that our class was able to "function" with each other at an arrangement where you went willingly, and everybody was included.

Is this posts messed up yet, because it is already kind of messed up in my head. My point with this post is that I think the the young teenagers should learn that fun doesn't always involve alcohol, and that alcohol most certainly doesn't always include fun. The fact that some people believe that socialization can only really happen at an intoxicated state, is damaging for some people's ability to evolve the ability to socialize, later in life, which honestly is just sad.

 I really don't think that you should base your friendships solely on how people have acted drunk, cause you might think that you see "the true nature of someone" when you meet them drunk - but the majority of people change, if only a little, when they get drunk. Some people get aggressive, some get very emotional and others (the more pleasant company, according to my opinion) just get very happy and joyful to be around.

Again, I think this post has gotten very weird, but just hold on a bit longer, if you mind.
I see the point that if you feel socially awkward and shy, alcohol might help you meeting new people because you'll feel less shy and awkward around these guys and gals. For some people it might seem like the only option, to get a little tipsy - but you might change, and even the slightest change can be too strange for some people, maybe for some of the guys and girls you've befriended. All according to how much you drink, and how you might change - some people might no recognize the sober you, and might not want to be friends with the person you really are.

You can easily have fun without involving alcohol, but if you really don't think otherwise, just be flippin' careful, okay? Thanks. Cheers (so to say..)

Picture from Ireland

Helene took this picture right after we landed in Ireland, and were heading to get our luggage. Everything written down was in Gaelic as the first language, and then "translated" into "normal" English underneath. It was quite confusing in the start, and we had NO idea how to pronounce any of the things, it was really strange. We eventually figured out a few words, and what they meant - but the Gaelic language just sounds so complex and hard to learn - but that is probably the way everyone thinks about a new language.

We learned from some of the people we met, that the Gaelic language is getting more and more popular in Ireland, that the children in school now have it as a subject, and that the young adults are more and more interested in learning the language. I would love to have two national languages, but if you've ever heard Gaelic.. I hope that isn't the only language they are going to speak (of course not, but imagine..)

Just found the picture, and thought I'd add a little text, even though the trip to Ireland was quite some time ago.. :-)

New Year's

DISCLAIMER

There is clear mentioning of alcohol in this post, and before you guys might flip your shit, I would like to state that the legal drinking age in my country is 16, and I am 17, so I am legal! Do not be alarmed, I am both legally, and by my parents, allowed to drink!

I do not condone minors drinking, you can easily have fun without alcohol - do not be dumb and drink if you're not legal! 

Thanks!

'Ello once again!

[Before you start reading, be warned, this is probably one of the longest thing I've ever written] 

I have now more or less recovered from my New Year's Eve - it is second day in school for me, yeah I started school the 2nd of January, there is no mercy in this school. I started out having an English mid-term test, which itself isn't really hard, what made it close to insufferable was the fact that I was so, so, so, so, sooooo tired!
The test started around 9AM, and at some point I just looked up at the clock and went: "I still hadn't gone to bed 24 hours ago.." that might seem crazy to some of you guys, but wasn't a party that went crazy as much as we just had too good of a time to go to bed - and we sort of went into the mode where you're just overly tired, and then your body just releases the last amount of energy, so you just end up going in over-drive... And we just kept saying "3 MORE HOURS, GUYS! WE CAN DO THIS!!"... Which ultimately lead to my falling asleep around 9.30AM.. Sigh..

I started out at "ma guurl" Sofie's house, she had to work from 3PM to 6PM, so I just waited at her house, went grocery shopping with Lis, Sofie's mother, showered and go ready - Sof came rushing home, had a quick shower and then we headed to some of their friends' house where we ate - and I learned that Tequila-shots are sooo much flipping better with oranges instead of lemons.. I know some people thinks that the sour taste is a part of it, but the oranges are just so much better when you're not that fond of that nasty tequila taste! 

After dinner, and the shots, we got a ride to where we were to pick up Julie, and girl also going to the party, and then the lovely lad who had given us a ride (who had not been drinking, do not drink and drive!!!!), also took us to the New Year's Eve part as well. We were blasting quite loud rock on the way there, and we were generally having a laugh, and I was in the best mood when we arrived! I wasn't really that drunk at that point, all I had gotten was a little bit of wine, and then a few shots, none of it had really kicked in yet - so except for the lack of buzz in me, I was in the greatest party mood!

Not so long I introduced my friends to one of my really good friends to my other friends, and apparently they loved him - which I am very glad that they do. He knew a few of the people beforehand, but at a party with 25 people he was introduced to a lot of new faces, and I think he did pretty well. Anyway, he was there when we arrived - and I was really glad to see him mingling and having fun, it made me more able to just run around and have fun, when I knew that he was having fun on his own; so I went along and partied on!

After I had greeted everyone, it was time to get shitfaced! Some of you guys might think that it is completely dumb that we party more or less just to get drunk, but that is just the way we do it here - it helps us loosen up, have a laugh, just cutting loose (I know I already said that) and forgetting how fucking stressful our everyday lives are. This sounds really deep and philosophic - but it's really not meant to be.. ;-)
Back on track, I poured some shots down to get myself buzzing, and I went around the house to check up on things. At Mark's house (where we were, duh) there's a pool table, which was frequently used, and it is actually quite fun to watch drunk people play pool, some get worse but some people actually get a lot better! In that room was also a couch, which was occupied most of the time, often by far too many people! 

The night went on and as we got more drunk, the music became higher; and I danced around with my friends, we did tequila body-shots (with orange!), went outside and a bit away from the house to shoot some firework (we weren't allowed to do it at the house, the neighbour-house has a roof of straw, which would catch fire a bit too easy!), and as 12:00 got closer we gathered in the basement, where we had an uplink to a countdown. As it hit 12:00PM/AM, we jumped from chairs, tables - and Marcel was even thrown into the new year! Of course it didn't go that well, but hat was mostly because one of the two guys throwing him chickened out and didn't really throw him - so he was thrown weird and landed more or less on a newly healed wound on his shin, which of course stated piss bleeding again.. But due to the alcohol I don't think he felt as much pain as he would've otherwise.

Oh yeah - and I got a New Year's kiss... Nothing major, but is was nice ;-)

I am actually quite impressed that I stayed up that long, I was up 'till about 10AM in the morning.. Which resulted in me being so tired the day after, that I could barely stay awake for breakfast - but when we had to clean the place up afterwards, I was just so tired that my body kicked in with the last amount of energy that is released when you go into overdrive - so I was switching between being so tired I could barely move around, and being a hyperactive jet rocket running around not really doing anything productive, but running around.

I think one of the major reasons that we stayed up so late was the dear Linus - he kept us up and active and ran around and kept saying "JUST THREE MORE HOURS GUYS, WE CAN DO THIS!" - and for some reason some of us actually didn't go to bed, we just stayed up with Linus - that crazy kid.. He made quite good friends with some of the guys there, and they made up these weird plans.. I have honestly no idea if they even remember making these plans?

At some point during the night/morning, Linus and one of the guys from my class, Alexander decided that they wanted to go for a walk in the little town the party was held in.. Seem logical to want to go out in the night when it's about 5 degrees outside.. Yeah. Mind you, the winter hasn't really kicked in here yet, so 5 degrees is actually quite warm for a New Year's eve here.. Anyway, I had to go with these two fools, since none of them new how to get back to the house if they suddenly decided to take a weird turn or something so they might end up on a weird field outside of the town or something.. I don't know what could happen to them, so I went with them. I was walking ahead of the boys, and as I turned around to ask them where they wanted to go, I was met by the sight of the two lads without their shirts..

Okaaaaay.. I aske why, and they simply responded that they thought it was too warm to wear a shirt outside.. Lunatics.. Not that I mind, being in the class that I am, and having the friends I have - I am quite used to nudity by now. We went walking, and at some point I felt like running instead - because fuck me and my brain, I was drunk as fuck at that point.. I could feel that I was cold, and I think I remember my teeth clacking, but I didn't really freeze, due to the amount of alcohol.. Yeah, smart decision to go outside when you can't feel how cold it is.. 
But as written, I started running a bit, not too long, the lads could still see me, but as I stopped and just walked I suddenly heard running feet, and as I turned around I suddenly found myself in the middle of a sandwich - the two guys around me, and we were all laughing our asses off! They eventually released me, and we went a bit further. Alexander did, for some reason, get the idea that it was a good time to do push-ups - IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FUCKING ROAD! Linus followed that idea, and me, I just walked further, I wasn't really in a state to deal with that..

We somehow got back, and I honestly have no idea how long time we were outside. I think a couple of hours more went by before we actually got to bed.. Again, I don't know what time it was when we went out - but all I know is that at some point the host and one of his good friends sat in the kitchen and discussed politics. I didn't really bother to put my mind that much into what they were actually discussing, I just sat on the floor with one of my friends, we shared a bag of crisps with dip, and a blanket - it was quite entertaining. 

I will try to end my freaking novel here, we went to bed far too late, and got a few hours of sleep.. The day after, we watched films on the giant couches, and I slept most of the day when I eventually got home. The day after (the 2nd) at my English test I could take a look at the clock and say "24 hours ago, I hadn't even gone to bed yet.. Whyyyyy"

It was a fucking fantastic New Year's Eve!