Where is my voice?

Hi guys!

Sooo.. I have had a sore throat for some time now, and I have had a bit of fever for the last few days. This have given me a few problems, some in form of clothing crisis (with the fever it is impossible to predicts if I will be warm or cold as fuck, so I have more or less just been dressing in jeans, a small top and a giant jumper, sweater or something like it..), other in where I have just been in pure agony - not being able to do a single shit about my situation because I have been close to "overdosing" (nothing serious, calm your tits guys) on the painkillers and throat-lozenges. I have had an abnormally high consumption of tea and coffee lately, anything to sooth my throat.

Yesterday, at my school, there was this café in the evening. Some of my friends were going, and I had planned to do as well - but then my throat decided to hurt like fuck with the slightest sound or littlest amount of food I tried to swallow. So I was planning on stating home, and I was just heading out for my running program (I am very fucking stubborn about this program, I dropped it once, it is not going to happen again! So I headed out despite feeling like crap.. maybe a bad idea), when two of my friends stated bombarding me with texts, telling me to move my ass to the school and be with them instead of my warm, cosy and lovely bed.. It probably was a really bad idea, but I honestly don't think that I would've gotten better, just by laying in bed.

I went to the café after some persuasion by my friends, after my run of course, and I had a really nice time with my friends. And lets just say the playing twister in skinny-jeans... Well it's fucking hard and almost impossible, I dare to say! It was, to say the least, very fun to watch some of the boys having a hard time bending their bodies in the ways required to stay in the game. Ah, well - I got home, took a few more lozenges and headed to bed a little late (there was a film on that I watched before going to bed, woops).

Today.. I woke up feeling like utter shit. Just just a sore throat, but a throat that felt like it was on fucking fire just by breathing, nausea and a feeling that my body temperature has risen to about 47 degrees Celsius - I basically felt like I was dying by melting.. What a fucking great idea it was to go to the café while my body was fighting an oncoming cold (or whatever this shit is..?), but I had a better time than I would've had if I stayed home in my bed. So yeah - worth it maybe.

But now.. My voice is gone.. Not just low or hoarse.. It's actually gone. Gone, dead, pow I have no idea what happened. I was this morning, and for the morning assembly I was perfectly able to speak, well it was a bit hoarse (BUT MY VOICE WAS STILL THERE!), but then during the free block thing, my voice just somehow magically disappeared.. I was laughing at something someone said, and then when I tried to say something again, my voice just failed.. No sound, whatsoever could be drawn from me, and it was freaking annoying! I have often been in silence as a protest or to prove that I was able to do so (I am normally a very talking person), but actually loosing the ability to communicate for while was horrible!

After a while I was able to make small noises and speak in a very low and squeaky voice, but if I tried talking "normally" it would hurt my throat like fucking fuck. I am aware of the fact that that phrase isn't particularly creative, but I think you get my drift. I was horrible having German, we had to discuss rules for Criminal films or series.. And me having a almost destroyed voice.. Well it was a different class.. I tried contributing with something constructive to the talks.. But I ended up just sitting and listening to the others talking. It was honestly quite boring, and I started writing this.

Finishing up this freaking novel I've written here, to go make some of my homework - hope my throat gets better, and I'll talk to you guys later, peace!

Family frictions

THIS WAS WRITTEN IN DUBLIN

Hi guys!

As expected - this holiday is really creating some frictions between my parents and I.. There has been a few quarrels and arguments, but so far nothing major has happened, but we just get more and more irritated and grumpy at each other, it's like we're not even trying to behave anymore.. 

Not that I am really bothered, because I am honestly getting really tired of my parents' shit - and how fucking sensitive they're apparently getting over the course of our one week vacation - and I do know that I am most certainly not helping out with the mindset I have, but I think my reason is valid.

One of the reasons that I have stopped giving a fuck (or a feck, as they say here in Ireland), is the fact that my parents are accusing me of all these stupid things, things I haven't done. I am pretty sure you all know the situation; you are discussing something with your parents, and you're coming up with good and valid arguments for your case - and then your parents get mad, and tells you to "stop talking back" to them.. Like Jesus fucking Christ mate - would you be do kind to shut the fuck up??

I am aware of the fact that I am sounding like a little spoiled brat, and I might be - but I honestly think my parents are violently overreacting in these cases! We were visiting Kilmanham gaol (a very important jail in Irish history), and after the tour we headed towards the cafeteria, to get a cuppa before we headed towards the city again. I couldn't decide what kind if coffe I wanted, and that is apparently a thing my father hates, since he started practically yelling at me that I should "make up my fucking mind". 

Sure, I should've made up my mid faster - but that sure as hell didn't give him any reason to start yelling at me? I think he was overreacting and said something along the lines that it was just a cup of coffe, and that "Jees calm down!". That didn't south him very much...

My dearest father then continued, when we found a table, by saying that he might as well go home to the hotel since, for all he knew, I had ruined his day by acting the way I did.. Jesus fuck, that man needs counseling or something like that! Goddamn.. You should honestly think that he knew how to handle teenagers since he has 3 other kids.. Which are all grown up, but you know what I mean! 

All though, two of them are boys - and they do just more or less lock themselves in in their rooms and come out when they are over the teenage age - and my sister was proberbly one of the least teenage-ish teenagers you'll ever come across..

When we went on a day trip around the Wicklow area, we stopped at a shop/cafeteria/store-thing where there was a whole lot of jewelry and clothes and handmade stuff. We had headed out quite early in the morning, so I had stuffed the earrings I wanted to wear, in my jacket pocket. When we were leaving the shop, Helene and I had went to the bathroom - so my parents had our coats. Helene and I got to the bus before my parents, and as my mother entered the bus and passed me my coat, she whispered in my ear and asked me "what are those earrings in your pocket?!". Later on she told me that she apparently just thought I had bought some new earrings and that I didn't wanted to tell - but I am pretty fucking sure that she thought I had stolen them.. I don't think I have ever been so fucking offended in my life. My own mother thought I had stolen something!

Again - I am aware of how aweful I sound myself, but dear God I feel proud of myself for not ripping my own head off and screaming at my parents for hours. I am such an awful child to have - but I am pretty fucking sure that my parents are a bit overreacting, even for teenage parents!

Keep calm

So, I found this awesome shirt in a shop the other day, I am soooo up for buying this! Unfortunately my parents don't really agree with me. I will have it, even if I have to order it over the webs! Here is a picture - I think you will agree it was amazing!

I was at Guinness!!

So, I have finally gotten used to the cars driving in the left side - it was a nightmare the first days, getting scared shitless whenever I was driving a bus or a cab and seeing other cars coming right at us in the right lane of the road.. God, it was freaking horrible - thank God for the human ability to addabt to new habits!

We (my parents, my friend Helene and I) did a lot of things the first few days! As we landed at Dublin Airport, we bought a so called "Dublin pass" which allowed us a free busride from the airport to the center of Dublin, and free entrance on a lot of the big (and must-see) attractions in Dublin. 

With the pass in hand we first headed to our hotel where we were allowed to store our luggage - and then we grabbed a cap to the Guinness storehouse! The area owned by Guinness is huge! There is the storehouse itself which doubles as "show off for tourists" and store for franchise. I absolutely loved the place! The building was amazing and all the smells and taste experiences were just overwhelming! We were in a "Guinness tasting experience" where we could smell some of the main ingredients; barley, yeast, malt and hops. Helene and I especially likes the smell of hops, it was kind of a mix between vanilla and jasmine - a very fresh and lovely smell!

On our tour around the storehouse I also learned how to pour a perfect pint o' Guinness - something I am much proud of! We ate lunch at the storehouse (before going around tasting the beer), and I had some soup with a kind of bread that more assemblyed a slice of cake, it was so sweet from the Giunness mixed in it! 

My God, the gift shop at the storehouse was mad! There was both small keyrings, magnets, caps, mirrors, mugs, t-shirts, sweaters and I honestly haven't seen so much merchandise for one brand, in one place - in my entire life!! It was downright crazy - and I loved every second of it! Sadly, I didn't get to buy much - just a keyring, because I really want a t-shirt from Hard Rock Café - and then I'll see how much money there's left  afterwards!

Since I feel like I have now written an entire novel just about my experience with Guinness - I'll stop now and hopefully get to write another post later! Irish love to all of ya, may the road rise to meet ya steps! 

Pictures at 12:50 AM

Hello internet!

This is basically what happens when Helene and I are up at 00:50, because we have a 3 hour car ride at 03:00 AM, to catch out flight to Dublin.. We have now been here for 1 or two days (depends on how I schedule this post), and I hope we are having just as great a time as we are on these pictures! We took quite a few that didn't make it to this post, because we don't want to mentally scar you guys for life!

But hang on, and yes - you are allowed to think we are silly, weird or even ugly - we are just having a fucking amazing time! Hope to be able to post something later! Love you guys!

Ear eating is in fashion??

Derpa is my so far unknown middle name!

"I've got a fish-hook in my eyebrow and I like it!" and Grumpy Cat

Don't even know what is happening here??

Smiiiiles <3

DUBLIN - WE CHOOSE YOU!

Dubbilini is calling

BIG SMILES!

Hi guys!

So, Helene and I are finally going to Dublin tonight! I am SO stoked, I cannot wait to go there! I have been monitoring the weather, and for those few who might be jealous of us? The temperature is on and average of only +10 degrees Celsius, during the day! Damn gurl, we are seriously going to freeze out tits off! I have packed just about all my favourite warm shirts and sweater, well, so many I can wear in a week..

During this week, we are most likely to end up having NO connection to the internet, what soever! It is going to be hard, but I have done it before (well, not when I had the blog though...), and I can do it again - it is just something we all will have to accept and cope with! We might "find" some WiFi in a café or on a pub or something, and then I will have a draft ready to post! Reminds me - we are SO going to find a Starbucks, great coffee, cake and WiFi, what more can we ask for??

There is WiFi on the hotel we are staying at, but you have to pay for it, and it is ridiculously expensive - thanks for crap, Pearse Hotel - so I don't think we will be buying and using any of that, no thank you!

So.. I earlier wrote about scheduled posts that I would make to "pop" up when I was in Ireland, but honestly - I haven't had the time to make any these last few days. It has been all homework and packing and stress about the trip.. It sort of sucks.. But hey! Helene and I have made a post with some ridiculous pictures of us to come up Monday or Tuesday, and must count for something, right?
I am really sorry that I haven't made any other posts, maybe I can find time to do that during the car ride, or at the airport - but I hope you'll take my excuse for goods, and my promise that I will try to upload anything I can!

I'll hopping into bed soon, it is half past one, and I now have about one and a half hour to sleep in before we have to go.. Way to fuck with your daytime-rhythm.. Anyway.. If I can't get anything posted during the week, just know that I'll be having an amazing week, and I will show pictures and tell stories Monday or Tuesday in the week after I get home!

Love to all of you guys - Dublin is calling and I must go!

Sort of a PS real quick! 

If any of you know any good cafés, restaurants, attractions, museums, parks or any other cool thing in, or near Dublin, please please please hit it up in the comments, I would love to read it and try any recommendations! 

Okay, that was it - going to bed (for one hour..) now :)

Hi, here's a picture!

Well, I was messing around with my new pc, and I couldn't get the integrated webcam to work, so I found a "transportable" one I got ages ago, and felt like taking a picture! So to those of you who didn't know what I looked like, well, this is me! Hi!

Just a piny picture post before I go to make dinner for my parents after a long day of work! Salmon and spinach pasta - this is going to be sooo good! And since I went for the daily run in the morning, I don't have to go out running this evening, so I just have my physics rapport, hurray! I'll see ya guys - but before I forget it, there is a new post under this one, day 16 in the picture challenge - I'm (hopefully) starting this again :-)

See ya!

Day 16

A picture of someone who inspires me.

The one and only J-Law! The dear Jennifer Lawrence is an actress who inspires me! She is living in the tough world of Hollywood, yet she stays the same, quirky, sassy as fuck and crazy. I love the fact that she hasn't let her fame go to her head, she is down to earth and doesn't rise herself above others. She is considered "fat" in Hollywood, even though she is perfectly slim.. I don't understand Hollywood..

For the ones of you who uses Tumblr.. (You will get this one) Jennifer is pretty much a Tumblr user who went outside, and somehow became famous and now she's just confused. She is obsessed with food - it is one of the funniest things ever! Jennifer has often talked about the norms and standards regarding weight and body-image in Hollywood, and she often states that she doesn't understand the fashion in "looking like a scarecrow", and I couldn't agree more!

Being a girl who is admittedly a little chubby, it is the best thing ever that Hollywood has an Oscar-wining actress who is "normal" looking! Jen has said several times that she wouldn't want kids and teenagers to say that they want to look like her, so they would skip a meal, therefore she works out and exercises to get fir for a role, instead of starving herself.

I love the fact that Jennifer is always 100% herself, no matter what anyone thinks, and that is one of the biggest inspirations and supports for me to be who I am, even if I am a little chubby and not the perfect girl - I am going to be who I am and then screw the people who dislike me! ;-)

Picture challenge

Hi guys!

I found a draft for day 16 of the photo/picture challenge, and I have been thinking of starting up on the project again, also to get started blogging again. The posts aren't really that super long, but at least I will get to get writing again! When I did the project I didn't get to post the challenge everyday - more like every two or three days. I got to day 15, so I have 15 days or posts left, I think it going to take all from just the 15 days, up yo 45.. I might take my time..

As for next week, week 42, I will be in Dublin - so I will will make some scheduled post, so the blog won't die again. I am gone from Saturday morning to Sunday evening, and Monday my grandfather's widow (my grandfather's dead - for the slow ones) is hosting a brunch thing for the family, which I will be attending.. So I don't know if I will be posting Monday, but I hope I will get to make some posts to scheduled and then posted during the week I am in Ireland!

This week I won't be posting a lot, since I have three homework assignments I have to do.. Two have to be done by Thursday and one big one by Monday - except for the fact that my parents demand that I have it done by Friday.. Sigh. I hope I don't get stressed over this shit, it would really be shitcakes to fall back into that pattern, definitely not a thing I need in my life right now.. So let's hope I can steer clear of that - yes please!

So moving on, I have math right now, and we are just going through our latest assignment, which our teacher has handed back to us today, and I got a high score on it, so now I am zoning out of math-class and writing here.. I will start making the scheduled posts during this class, since I apparently have quite a lot of time on my hands right now. Our lessons are one and a half hour, and I think we are spending at least 20 minutes on a post-walk-through thing.. Will stop typing things that doesn't make any sense, and will start working on posts!

For the ones who have forgotten the challenges (people including me..), here it is!