Hi!
My name is Kristine, some call me Kris, and I am 17 years old. I go to high school on a biotechnological study line, and I have no clue what I want to do afterwards. I live with my parents, and I have three "half" siblings, though I prefer to refer to them as "bonus".. At least two of them.. I sometimes have issues with my oldest brother, he is trying to act as a father, and when he does that it honestly pisses me off! My siblings are quite a lot older than me, my sister is 11 years older than me (turning 28), my youngest brother is 15 years older than me (turning 32) and my oldest brother is 20 years older than me (turning 37).
That also means that my parents are quite old. My mom is from 1960 so she is turning 53 this year, and my father being 9 years older than her, makes him turn 62 years at the end of the month. I'll have to admit that when I was younger it sort of bothered me that my parents were sometimes more than 10 years older than the parents of my classmates. It doesn't bother me anymore, thought one of my biggest fears does include my parents age, because I am scared that my parents die before I get to show them what I can achieve in life, or that they might get Alzheimer and forget who I am (that is the reason why I force my parents to eat fish, I heard that that is good!).
I sometimes sort of "suffer" from extremely low self esteem, and I do on some days just end up sitting in a corner bitching about myself. And being the slob that I am, I never do anything about it. I have weird ways of dealing with my sad mood. I used to call it sort of a small depression, but I don't think that I have the rights to call it that. After all, it feels like it is just me being a wuss about myself.
As mentioned I go to high school. I'll be done in two years, and that thought honestly scares a little, because I don't know what I want to do afterwards. Starting in high school changed a lot of things in my life; I didn't get bullied, people actually cared about me, I got to choose which subjects I wanted to study - and school didn't suck complete ass! Starting in high school has definitely been one of the best things ever! I got to keep my best friends from ground school, and made a bunch of new ones!
I am a very social person, and you will also find me quite outgoing. I sort of live by the "motto"; "This is me. Let them bitch about it!". I do a lot of weird things, and sometimes people find me extremely socially awkward, but it is quite hard to embarrass me on that point. One of my friends have said that awkward silence doesn't exist around me, and I guess that is a good thing, eh? ;-)
As mentioned, I like to be weird. I love to dance around without a care of what others think of me. My often carefree attitude sometimes make people dislike me, I honestly don't know why - but hey! Whatever floats their goat! (yes, goat not boat..) I know that the people who stick with me, even though I am being weird, are keepers ;-) Gladly I have some friends who are close to just as weird as me, and as long as we keep it the good weird, I think we will be okay. I have had "friends" who have turned their back on me, but then I luckily had my real ones!
If you want to know anything about my looks, it's simple. I am 175 (176?) cm tall, definitely curvy (a little chubby, if to say myself - a thing my girl friends kill me over every time I say it.. A pretty much the reason for my low self esteem), I have blue eyes, blond hair and a fuckload of "beauty-marks" and birthmarks. Not much special about me really.. But due to my (honestly - high amount of) body fat, I have quite... Big boobs, let's just put it like that, shall we? ;-) hahahaha, ahhhh shame on me! ;-)
This is sort of turning into a novel, but I don't care!
I have learned, and been told by friends, that when I start liking something (or someone) I might get a little obsessed sometimes. I have always denied to be one of those teenage girls who would freak out if they are exposed to what ever they liked... But I sort of see the resemblance, sometimes! Luckily I never get super obsessed, but if it is a band or a singer, I often buy their record and learn all the songs by heart in a few days. So hopefully it isn't that bad, I feel so ashamed whenever I catch myself in the act of obsessing - shame.
My friends mean everything to me. They are my rocks when I freak out over something silly, they are the ones I can always talk to - even when I feel like I can't trust my parents or if I just have to get something of my chest. My best friends have been with me since 2nd grade, and went through the bullying with me, and they were there to pick me up, every time I had been kicked down. I have made some new amazing friends in high school, and they are just everything! My friends always knows how to make me smile, and I love them more than anything - and I will protect them with all my power.
I am a late night owl. It is almost eleven, I need to be up at half past six - and yet here I am, writing about myself on my blog - sigh! I like to party with my friends, but I have never been so drunk that I couldn't remember what I had done the day before - and I do most definitely take pride in that. I still don't get hangover, I haven't ruined my body that much yet - luckily! My brothers have done extremely stupid things being drunk but my sister was almost in a self chosen social exile when it comes to party - so I am hoping to be able to balance myself on a golden middle way!
I started out my blog as a kind of free space to express myself and to write about whatever the fuck I wanted. I have often written about extremely weird things, and posting weird pictures. That is just what this blog is, and has been. Sometimes I write about something important for me, or something I need to get out off my system and off my chest - and then my friends who read this blog sometimes react to it, and it is honestly so much easier than to sit down and tell someone about what I am feeling, here it just gets posted, and then it is out!
If you actually made to here in reading, I am proud of you! You are awesome! - and also thank you for reading my mindless blabbering! I love all of you who take time out of your day to actually read the things I have worked on and often put quite some thought in. I love you guys - and I will stop it here before it all gets way to cheesy!
- Kristine
I commented elsewhere too...Since you have given such a great introduction, I would like to give one too. I am the same age as you elder brother. Turning 37 this month. I am married and have two kids. Really like the way you write. Nowadays, kids usually do not care about the grammar, but was pleasantly surprised to see your blog :). Keep Blogging.
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